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Of course you knew that I was talking about God. Father almighty, creator of Heaven and Earth. My relationship with God changed a few years ago. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and that certain people come into our lives for a reason. So I believe he sent me an Angel. Someone who helped me to realize that my faith needed to be restored and that I can trust in Him and even though I have LUPUS I've already been cured and that this is just the beginning to the end. She helped me to think differently about myself and about my relationship with God. That it was okay to go to Him and ask Him for help. She helped me to realize that He is a forgiving God and He does not judge. We have no faults in His eyes. When she spoke of God and how amazing He is I listened. I really listened. My mother has always gone to church and I grew up in the church but there was a time in my life when I felt like I couldn't go to Him and pray. My mother speaks of God and lives by His Word but it just wasn't the same when I listened to my friend. How did she know so much? She is so young. It was just amazing to me of her knowledge and how she could just quote the Word like she knew it all by heart. Don't get me wrong, she doesn't preach or anything like that and force you to believe in her God. And she doesn't force me to listen to her. I wanted to listen. I thought only older people knew so much about the Bible. Boy was I naïve. She made me see the light. She helped me open my eyes. She was good. Slowly I would begin to pray each night. I started going back to church, not every Sunday but I made it. I started singing and I started singing loud. I began to praise Him for everything. I prayed for everything, even when bad things would happen. I thanked Him for the pain I was in. I no longer blamed Him. I thanked Him for my faults. I no longer blamed Him. I thanked Him for my "insanity." I no longer blamed Him. I thanked Him for my life. I no longer blamed Him for trying to take it away. My life started to change. I was happier than I'd ever been in my life. Yes I have a disease but that the disease does not have me and that it's okay. I'm still the person that I've always been I'm just better. I'm healthier. I'm stronger and I'm happier. I have joy in my life. And I thank Him for each and every moment and each and every breath I have left in me. I especially thank Him for bringing her into my life. I can be myself around her all the time. My true self! Me! The Me when I'm at home. When I'm feeling bad, really bad somehow she knows because I won't tell anyone when I do not feel well and she lets me be my miserable self. When I'm in a bad mood she understands and lets me be in my bad mood. When I'm in my silly mood she lets me be silly. She never tells me "You don't look sick" or "You were fine a minute ago." I think I have heard it all but she has never judged me or tried to make me do the things she feels I should be doing. She loves me and understands me for ME. And that is all that matters. She said to me one day that there are times in our lives when we choose our friends. We choose who we want to be in our lives and it's just a friendship but when God chooses who He wants in our lives it's more than just a friendship, it's His way of putting God into that persons life. There is not a rainbow big enough in the sky for the love and admiration I have for her. We've only know each other for a few years but she is my sister, my friend, my beloved Angel. We share so many things and the most common thing we share is our love for God. And I thank her with every breath I take. She has no idea how much she has helped me change my life and restore my faith and helped me to find what I've been missing out on for so long... true love of life and continuous Blessings.